Can you handle panic?
So my first strongest panic attack happened in Lodz, Poland.
When?
In 2012, in the autumn.
Why?
I saw again the same building, where I lived in 2011, and I had a relationship with a Columbian IT guy, who was before a soldier in Columbia for 5 years...
Why did I have panic?
There are several reasons:
- I was after the relationship. It was over, but it was still painful that time.
- I had the same friends with me, like when everything started. I was not sure how to avoid the same track.
- I used to see local Polish TV and watch reality TV show, where they represented, who Polish girls terrorize each others, if they are angry. For me, sometimes it felt unjustified.
But as I said, every city, every country have their own rules and customs, what is ok, what is not.
It is the same in Denmark.
For me, after studying so many Law subjects for so many different sources, and also coming from a family, where important lawyers were, it was just very difficult to acknowledge, that in Denmark, the International Law, the Danish Law came 99% after the old ladies' wishes...
It felt just uncomfortable, as we in Hungary we were educated to respect law, and follow law, and here it felt continuous pitfall, when I followed the written Law, and the not told spoken law was not properly represented.
It is not fear, not correct.
In Romani tribes, there are rules, and those rules are told to the members.
Here, in Denmark, as everybody wanted to be Dans, and not representing openly the Romani culture, it came out crazy, at least for a person, who spent already 11 years in Denmark.
Why?
One of the source of panic, when you cannot calculate the steps, but you are unfortunately sure, that something very bad could happen to you.
It is originated in injustices.
When someone demand you to follow the rules, you do, but they do whatever...
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